well it has been almost two weeks since uncle bob passed away and the pain of losing him and all the associated feelings of grief are all still raw and real and at times, quite overwhelming.
after visiting him almost daily for the past month; talking with him, laughing with him, crying for him and doing what we could to make his last days on earth as comfortable as we could, there are days where i just sit and do nothing....not too sure of what i need to be doing to begin the process of living my own life again.
but life does go on - household chores need to be done (you should see my ironing pile !!!); bills paid; friendships to re-establish; family dynamics need to be re-evaluated.
uncle bob's funeral was, as funerals go, just lovely.
we had a beautiful selection of songs to send him off; i gave his eulogy (along with my cousin's 12 year old son who read a poem) which most family members had a hand in helping me write; there were opportunities for our family to come together and support each other; and there were tears and laughter - all of which were good things.
i was quite concerned about dad's wellbeing there for a while. and it broke my heart every time i saw the pain and hurt in dad's eyes but i think he is going to be ok. i have had some wonderful chats with him over the past week and i have found a new level of respect and love for him.
don't get me wrong....he drives me totally batty at times but he is my dad and i love him dearly.
i want to thank, from the bottom of my heart, everyone who contacted me either via comments here, emails, SMS, or phone calls.
your support was/is wonderful and very much appreciated.
and a special thank you to that one special friend (and you know who you are) who let me call whenever i needed to rant and rave at the unfairness of it all and who helped me find the words and the courage to go on when i didn't think i could.
love ya heaps.
well soccer season is well and truly upon us. with 4 of our family playing this year - mark, matt, jake and miss kait - there is always a training session someone has to be at, or a game they need a lift to, or a strip that needs washing and with mark taking on the role of club secretary there is always paperwork that needs to be done/filed/submitted/looked at.
matt is struggling with his recurring back injury and i think we are going to have to go back to square one with him and start at the beginning and see what sort of treatment will get it right again. he is frustrated and angry that his body appears to be letting him down at such a young age and who can blame him...??? the injury occurred through no fault of his own and the people responsible for caring for him after it happened did very little in the way of getting him help when he needed it.
jakey is doing well and slotting into the prems team really well. he is leading the internal team voting for most valuable player on the field - a big thing considering he is the "baby" of the team. i get the giggles everytime i see him play and hear the other team members and his coaches calling him "jakey" - just like we do here at home. the older team members respect his skills as a player and as one of them said to me after the game last weekend..."he is just such a great kid"
mark's 5th division team will never make the olympic play-offs but they love getting out on the paddock and having a kick. normally his games are played in a great spirit of two teams of blokes just out for a kick around on a saturday afternoon - no playing for sheep stations allowed nor tolerated.
let's face it...who wants to ruin a great social event with a serious game of soccer...LOL
and miss kait had her first game on friday night. for a little girl who has been around soccer her whole life it is kinda surprising that she has never wanted to play until now.
the funniest thing was seeing her skipping back to the centre line after the other team scored their goals (our girls lost 5 - nil...not bad considering half of them had never played before) and then busting out some physie moves when the ball was up the other end.
and as her coach said on several occasions...."what IS that child doing?"
here are some "untouched" pics of her durng her first game...don't you just LOVE her little chicken legs sticking out of her shorts.
hoping to get back to some scrapping soon. i just haven't had the heart, or the mental clarity to deal with anything creative for a few months now and i am starting to miss scrapping.
anyways...not much else to say at the moment. still kinda trying to move on with life but i think it is all gonna be ok.
thanks again to everyone for their wonderful friendship and support.
remember to always to look for the things in your life that make you smile
~~ and let those you love, know that you do ~~
and
~*~ LIVE OUT LOUD ~*~
shazz xo
after visiting him almost daily for the past month; talking with him, laughing with him, crying for him and doing what we could to make his last days on earth as comfortable as we could, there are days where i just sit and do nothing....not too sure of what i need to be doing to begin the process of living my own life again.
but life does go on - household chores need to be done (you should see my ironing pile !!!); bills paid; friendships to re-establish; family dynamics need to be re-evaluated.
uncle bob's funeral was, as funerals go, just lovely.
we had a beautiful selection of songs to send him off; i gave his eulogy (along with my cousin's 12 year old son who read a poem) which most family members had a hand in helping me write; there were opportunities for our family to come together and support each other; and there were tears and laughter - all of which were good things.
i was quite concerned about dad's wellbeing there for a while. and it broke my heart every time i saw the pain and hurt in dad's eyes but i think he is going to be ok. i have had some wonderful chats with him over the past week and i have found a new level of respect and love for him.
don't get me wrong....he drives me totally batty at times but he is my dad and i love him dearly.
i want to thank, from the bottom of my heart, everyone who contacted me either via comments here, emails, SMS, or phone calls.
your support was/is wonderful and very much appreciated.
and a special thank you to that one special friend (and you know who you are) who let me call whenever i needed to rant and rave at the unfairness of it all and who helped me find the words and the courage to go on when i didn't think i could.
love ya heaps.
well soccer season is well and truly upon us. with 4 of our family playing this year - mark, matt, jake and miss kait - there is always a training session someone has to be at, or a game they need a lift to, or a strip that needs washing and with mark taking on the role of club secretary there is always paperwork that needs to be done/filed/submitted/looked at.
matt is struggling with his recurring back injury and i think we are going to have to go back to square one with him and start at the beginning and see what sort of treatment will get it right again. he is frustrated and angry that his body appears to be letting him down at such a young age and who can blame him...??? the injury occurred through no fault of his own and the people responsible for caring for him after it happened did very little in the way of getting him help when he needed it.
jakey is doing well and slotting into the prems team really well. he is leading the internal team voting for most valuable player on the field - a big thing considering he is the "baby" of the team. i get the giggles everytime i see him play and hear the other team members and his coaches calling him "jakey" - just like we do here at home. the older team members respect his skills as a player and as one of them said to me after the game last weekend..."he is just such a great kid"
mark's 5th division team will never make the olympic play-offs but they love getting out on the paddock and having a kick. normally his games are played in a great spirit of two teams of blokes just out for a kick around on a saturday afternoon - no playing for sheep stations allowed nor tolerated.
let's face it...who wants to ruin a great social event with a serious game of soccer...LOL
and miss kait had her first game on friday night. for a little girl who has been around soccer her whole life it is kinda surprising that she has never wanted to play until now.
the funniest thing was seeing her skipping back to the centre line after the other team scored their goals (our girls lost 5 - nil...not bad considering half of them had never played before) and then busting out some physie moves when the ball was up the other end.
and as her coach said on several occasions...."what IS that child doing?"
here are some "untouched" pics of her durng her first game...don't you just LOVE her little chicken legs sticking out of her shorts.
hoping to get back to some scrapping soon. i just haven't had the heart, or the mental clarity to deal with anything creative for a few months now and i am starting to miss scrapping.
anyways...not much else to say at the moment. still kinda trying to move on with life but i think it is all gonna be ok.
thanks again to everyone for their wonderful friendship and support.
remember to always to look for the things in your life that make you smile
~~ and let those you love, know that you do ~~
and
~*~ LIVE OUT LOUD ~*~
shazz xo
2 comments:
Lovely to see you back. I hope you are feeling better today.
love,
Jo.
xx
Aww Kait looks so cute in her soccer gear! Hope all your guys have a great season, we're not doing soccer this year and it just feels wierd! LOL Alex is playing footy instead, every single tackle I totally cringe! Oh dear!
Hugs to you!
C x
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