i am at the crossroads of my life....well that is what it feels like to me.
so many "little things" have happened in the past few weeks that have me questioning every single aspect of my life....who i am?; what should i be doing with my life?; my role as a mother, a wife, a friend, my place in our extended family.
and all these questions have added up to a HUGE realisation, that at almost the age of 44, i don't know who i am or where i should be or where my place is in the universe.
as i said to a friend the other night....i just don't "fit" in anywhere. and when i stop and think about it, i don't think i ever have.
and i am scared and alone and frightened and just not coping the best with life at the moment.
i need some direction and clarity in my life.
i have insomnia, my weight is creeping up again, i am teary and the panic attacks are coming more regularly.
i just need to know...
and to feel...
and to fit....
and to breathe.
xo
so many "little things" have happened in the past few weeks that have me questioning every single aspect of my life....who i am?; what should i be doing with my life?; my role as a mother, a wife, a friend, my place in our extended family.
and all these questions have added up to a HUGE realisation, that at almost the age of 44, i don't know who i am or where i should be or where my place is in the universe.
as i said to a friend the other night....i just don't "fit" in anywhere. and when i stop and think about it, i don't think i ever have.
and i am scared and alone and frightened and just not coping the best with life at the moment.
i need some direction and clarity in my life.
i have insomnia, my weight is creeping up again, i am teary and the panic attacks are coming more regularly.
i just need to know...
and to feel...
and to fit....
and to breathe.
xo
