nana and i - christmas day 1995you would think that after 11 years i would have stopped missing you;
but i haven't.
you would think that after 11 years i wouldn't reach for the phone everytime i wanted to share some news;
but i still do.
you would think that after 11 years the hurt and pain of your loss would be a little less; but it is still as raw and and painful as the day you left.
you would think that after 11 years my heart would be a little less broken when i think of all the wonderful things i want to share with you and can't;
but my heart still aches for you.
you would think that after 11 years i would have found another confidante that i could tell anything to;
but i haven't.
you would think that after 11 years i could think of you and not immediately have my eyes fill with tears;
but i can't.
i miss you my darling nana.
i miss your arms hugging me and telling me things would all be ok, even when you knew they wouldn't.
i miss our chats on the phone almost daily - you were always so interested in what i was doing; what my family was up to.
i miss our visits to the coffee shop so you could have your cup of tea and scone.
i miss taking you for drives - you always had such a good time.
i miss you laugh, and you smile and the way you called me "sharry"
i am so sorry i never got to say goodbye.
i am so sorry that i couldn't speak at your funeral.
i am so sorry you never got to see my boys grow up or to see what a beautiful angel my kait has become - and you did believe she was an angel.
i am so sorry i didn't push harder for you to see a doctor when i knew you were so ill.
i miss you nana
xxoo
8 comments:
So sorry for your loss! I lost my dad 14 years ago and it still is hard!
Glad you have good times to look back on!
This is such a nice tribute to her.
Hugs. Losing your grandmother is rough, especially when you're really close like you so obviously were. What a lovely post. She was obviously a special lady.
No words Shazz.
Just big hugs.
Kel xxx
Oh beautiful words Shazz, in such a heartbreaking way. I can't even imagine my nana and Pa going and don't want to. She looks like a beautiful, caring soul and I bet she's looking down at you right now wishing she could take your pain away. Thinking of you.
Big hugs Shazz! I truly believe your dear Nanna still watches over you and your precious children, blessings to you honey.
Love and prayers
Chrissy x
Oh Shazz, losing someone you love is hard at any time however it seems extra hard near Christmas. Sending you warm hugs.
Hey Shazz :) You always say the most beautiful words, big (((((HUGGS))))) to you my friend, I am sorry for your loss.
I would like to say a huge thank you for your friendship and your words that make me smile, MERRY CHRISTMAS to you and your lovely family and may 2008 be all that you wish for.
(((((HUGGS)))))
Trac x
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